more than you'll ever know

Yesterday was truly a blast! It was melodramatic for the first part and fun in the end. Our block attended LASARE1 yesterday, and it was really an enriching experience.

Of all the days, of all the times, of all the occasions that I had to cry, yesterday was the time that I really cried a lot. I never thought that I could cry so much and so emotionally. Yeah I was a bit -- fine yeah right that wasn't a bit -- I was at the tip of my emotional state yesterday. I really turned emo, too emo…

When we were asked to have a moment of silence and try to talk or find solace in the silence and to just listen, listen to what God had to say, I never, ever thought that of all the songs that was played, it was the song I was most emotional to…

Take my hand

We'll walk a while, we'll talk a while

Feel my love, always there beside you

Be the one

I know you'll tell me everything

You are the one I cherish more than anything

I love you more than you'll ever know

I love you more than you'll ever see

More than my heart could ever show

I love you more than you'll ever know

Think of me

And know that I'll believe in you

There'll always be this precious time together

With every tear

A love so strong, no words could ever say

A love to last forever

I love you more than you'll ever know

I love you more than you'll ever see

More than my heart could ever show

I love you more than you'll ever know

Take my hand

We'll walk awhile,we'll talk awhile

Feel my love,always there beside you

Be the one

I know you'll tell me everything

You are the one I cherish more than anything

I love you more than you'll ever know

I love you more than you'll ever see

More than my heart could ever show

I love you more than you'll ever know

When I heard the intro of the song, I choked because I was about to sob. Take note: I sobbed. And when the song was already starting with the verse, I really cried. I cried hard. Really hard. I was sobbing for Pete's sake! I never -- maybe rarely -- sobbed. And what more in front of a lot of people. The others, they were only teary-eyed and cried a bit, but I, on the other hand, my face was soaked. Tear-smeared. My pillow seat was wet from all of my tears. The I-have-no-idea-what-kind-of-emotion-I-can-describe part was, the song was just about to start, I was already crying. For Pete's sake! I never thought in my whole life, a certain song nor a person would affect me as such. And it shook me, it shook my existence. Was that a coincidence that of all the songs, it had to be that particular song that had to be played? It was too much of a coincidence… I don't understand what He was trying to tell me. I still never fixed this until now. Is that a sign for me to patch things up already? Or was that a sign saying, Let go? :'(

"I never stopped loving you, I just stopped showing it."