i wish

I wish...
the new year will turn out all right for me.
I can get the strength to move on.
I can forget all about you.
I can go back time and stop myself from falling for you.
I did not risk the things we had before.
I risked the things I could have risked when I still had you.
this pain would go away.
we did not end this way.
I am strong enough to handle the pain.
it was easy to move on.
I could hate you.
I could despise you.
I could let you feel the pain I'm feeling.
I could let you know how important you are to me.
it was never you. Anyone but you.
it was easy for me as it is for you.
I never loved you this much.
I never cared for you this much.
you were not important in my life.
my dreams about you would stop.
we did not become this close.
I never knew you.
you did not touch my heart.
you were not greater than he is.
I never got over him.
you could prove me wrong.
you're still here with me.
we could have been together.
I would meet the person for me.
that someone would not bring me pain.
that someone would be brave enough to fight for me.
that someone would know how much I will love him.
that someone could be better than you could ever be.
that someone would be sensitive enough to care.
I would stop hoping that you'll still be that someone.

But...
I can't...Just can't...