For the first time, I'm not procrastinating. I managed to finish three out of six assingments for today as of the moment, and it's still mid-afternoon. Wala lang. Natutuwa lang ako. Hopefully I'll sleep early tonight. January's almost over. Today's the final Sunday of January 2007. Wala lang ulit. Hehe.
As most people know, seven's my favorite number. I hope 2007 will be better for me. Can't wait for July 7. Nothing really. I wish it'll be a memorable day for me. For the happy part of course.
I had my speech for my SPEECOM class last Friday. I did better than I expected actually. I was the first one to be drawn out of the lot. Well at least the agony is over. And it was Jan's birthday last Friday too. Belated dear! :D
*sigh* January is almost over. February is coming near. I hate it. Time's passing too fast. Oh well. As if I can do anything about it.
Please oh please help me decide on whether to stay or not. I leave evrything to You. Please decide for me.
"I never stopped loving you, I just stopped showing it."
word tripping
today's a saturday. so? wala lang! haha. just tripping. i was a bit late for my cwts this morning. but i have to say, it was worth the late. haha. why? I sAw PeG tHiS mOrNiNg!!! nyahahahaha. a nice way to start my day. naks! :)) and FYI, he said hi. he sAid Hi!!!! wow. haha. i didn't think he would, you know. i mean we're not classmates anymore. not even in one of my classes. sigh. haha anyway. ahem. haha. i'm word tripping right now. haha. no idea what to say and how to say it. haha. hmm...
a few realizations struck me this week. but im a bit lazy to talk about them. haha. anything that's got to do with computers make me lazy. stretch stretch. LoLz. to cut a long story short, im a bit tired of going oL. if only when i need to do so then i do. of course i need to. doi. then i have no choice right? LoLz. of course my precious keeps me going to go oL. did that make sense?
actually that wasn't my realization. LoLz. im a confusing person aren't i? haha. get used to it. nyahahahahaha. that's how im going to be for the next few days, months. who knows. hahaha.
ayt ayt. get on with the realization part. haha. i just realized. there. hahahahahahahahaha. im uber annoying aren't i? =)) haha ayt i'll be serious na. eEw! tag-lish! nyahahahahaha. kidding kidding. i sound drunk don't i? =)) i guess i am a bit. hahaha.
it is only now that i learned that you are not the only one i can depend on. there are other people who are capable of doing the things you did for me. and i neglected them when i had you. now that won't happen again. most especially that you're not around anymore. hahaha.
<---didn't understand what i said? go figure. or never mind. wahahahahahaha =))
a few realizations struck me this week. but im a bit lazy to talk about them. haha. anything that's got to do with computers make me lazy. stretch stretch. LoLz. to cut a long story short, im a bit tired of going oL. if only when i need to do so then i do. of course i need to. doi. then i have no choice right? LoLz. of course my precious keeps me going to go oL. did that make sense?
actually that wasn't my realization. LoLz. im a confusing person aren't i? haha. get used to it. nyahahahahaha. that's how im going to be for the next few days, months. who knows. hahaha.
ayt ayt. get on with the realization part. haha. i just realized. there. hahahahahahahahaha. im uber annoying aren't i? =)) haha ayt i'll be serious na. eEw! tag-lish! nyahahahahaha. kidding kidding. i sound drunk don't i? =)) i guess i am a bit. hahaha.
it is only now that i learned that you are not the only one i can depend on. there are other people who are capable of doing the things you did for me. and i neglected them when i had you. now that won't happen again. most especially that you're not around anymore. hahaha.
<---didn't understand what i said? go figure. or never mind. wahahahahahaha =))
3rd term
first week of third term's over. it's been...fine? haha. i actually have no idea what i currently feel about the new term. yeah. i guess it's ok. im surviving most of my classes. though i have to say it's too early to say so. i have a couple of terror profs who live up to their reputation. ugh!
i already got a new quote from my INTHROP prof which would certainly in my list -- " everybody is unique, just like everyone else." that quote really made me think and realize Onga noh! haha that's my very reaction when i thought about it. anyway, better get back to INTHROP-ing. btw, im not sure how often i would get to update my precious. but i'll try to do so as often as i can. :)
i already got a new quote from my INTHROP prof which would certainly in my list -- " everybody is unique, just like everyone else." that quote really made me think and realize Onga noh! haha that's my very reaction when i thought about it. anyway, better get back to INTHROP-ing. btw, im not sure how often i would get to update my precious. but i'll try to do so as often as i can. :)
i wish
I wish...
the new year will turn out all right for me.
I can get the strength to move on.
I can forget all about you.
I can go back time and stop myself from falling for you.
I did not risk the things we had before.
I risked the things I could have risked when I still had you.
this pain would go away.
we did not end this way.
I am strong enough to handle the pain.
it was easy to move on.
I could hate you.
I could despise you.
I could let you feel the pain I'm feeling.
I could let you know how important you are to me.
it was never you. Anyone but you.
it was easy for me as it is for you.
I never loved you this much.
I never cared for you this much.
you were not important in my life.
my dreams about you would stop.
we did not become this close.
I never knew you.
you did not touch my heart.
you were not greater than he is.
I never got over him.
you could prove me wrong.
you're still here with me.
we could have been together.
I would meet the person for me.
that someone would not bring me pain.
that someone would be brave enough to fight for me.
that someone would know how much I will love him.
that someone could be better than you could ever be.
that someone would be sensitive enough to care.
I would stop hoping that you'll still be that someone.
But...
I can't...Just can't...
the new year will turn out all right for me.
I can get the strength to move on.
I can forget all about you.
I can go back time and stop myself from falling for you.
I did not risk the things we had before.
I risked the things I could have risked when I still had you.
this pain would go away.
we did not end this way.
I am strong enough to handle the pain.
it was easy to move on.
I could hate you.
I could despise you.
I could let you feel the pain I'm feeling.
I could let you know how important you are to me.
it was never you. Anyone but you.
it was easy for me as it is for you.
I never loved you this much.
I never cared for you this much.
you were not important in my life.
my dreams about you would stop.
we did not become this close.
I never knew you.
you did not touch my heart.
you were not greater than he is.
I never got over him.
you could prove me wrong.
you're still here with me.
we could have been together.
I would meet the person for me.
that someone would not bring me pain.
that someone would be brave enough to fight for me.
that someone would know how much I will love him.
that someone could be better than you could ever be.
that someone would be sensitive enough to care.
I would stop hoping that you'll still be that someone.
But...
I can't...Just can't...
me
I love the beach.
I love seashells and sand.
I love dolphins. The only animal I love in the animal kingdom.
I love different shades of blue, except for royal blue.
I love the stars. It's a nice feeling looking at them while lying down the grass.
I love surprises.
I love books. I love to read.
I love my laptop. It contains my thoughts.
I love my room. It's my sanctuary and not everyone is allowed to enter it. It's the place where I can think and actually hear myself.
I love writing esp. when I write about my emotions.
I like sunrises but I love sunsets. It’s a great feeling while one watches the sun set in the ocean.
I like clouds, those cottony and fluffy ones.
I like musical instruments, though they don’t like me back. :))
I like concerts but I love serenades. Especially dancing along to it with someone.
I like summers but I love winters. It gives you a reason to cuddle up and share a blanket with someone. :))
I like happy endings but I love realistic ones.
I like ideal things but I love realistic ones.
I like being right but I would love it if someone would prove me wrong.
I like being on top but it feels good to be at the bottom once in a while.
I like success but it's ok to fail once in a while. To learn and be a better person.
I like peanut butter but I love strawberry jam.
I like mango, apple, and banana but I love strawberry, peach, and kiwi.
I like chocolates but I love flowers.
I like poems but I love letters.
I like kisses but I love hugs.
I like stuffed toys but I love beanbags and pillows.
I like holidays but I love birthdays.
I like going out but I love staying indoors.
I like letters but I prefer numbers.
I like even numbers but I prefer odd ones.
I like my mobile but I love the telephone.
I like constancy but I prefer change.
I like company but I prefer solitude.
I like dreams but I prefer reality.
I like myths but I prefer fairytales.
I like knowledge but I prefer wisdom.
Ignorance is bliss but innocence is better.
I hate the ocean. The vastness and endlessness of it.
I hate pink. Too girly.
I hate sharks. They scare me numb.
I hate roaches. They're icky.
I hate liars and people who break promises.
Rain makes me sad and sleepy.
I am uniquely weird.
I am unpredictable.
I am misunderstood.
I am a hopeless romantic, though it's not so obvious.
I am secretive.
I am easily stressed and easily hurt.
I am jealous but not envious.
I am sensitive.
I am a thinker.
I am sentimental.
I am apprehensive.
I try to be strong. I avoid showing my weakness.
I seek safety and security.
I'm not dense, just act like one.
I forgive but don't forget.
I love unconditionally.
I am me.
I love seashells and sand.
I love dolphins. The only animal I love in the animal kingdom.
I love different shades of blue, except for royal blue.
I love the stars. It's a nice feeling looking at them while lying down the grass.
I love surprises.
I love books. I love to read.
I love my laptop. It contains my thoughts.
I love my room. It's my sanctuary and not everyone is allowed to enter it. It's the place where I can think and actually hear myself.
I love writing esp. when I write about my emotions.
I like sunrises but I love sunsets. It’s a great feeling while one watches the sun set in the ocean.
I like clouds, those cottony and fluffy ones.
I like musical instruments, though they don’t like me back. :))
I like concerts but I love serenades. Especially dancing along to it with someone.
I like summers but I love winters. It gives you a reason to cuddle up and share a blanket with someone. :))
I like happy endings but I love realistic ones.
I like ideal things but I love realistic ones.
I like being right but I would love it if someone would prove me wrong.
I like being on top but it feels good to be at the bottom once in a while.
I like success but it's ok to fail once in a while. To learn and be a better person.
I like peanut butter but I love strawberry jam.
I like mango, apple, and banana but I love strawberry, peach, and kiwi.
I like chocolates but I love flowers.
I like poems but I love letters.
I like kisses but I love hugs.
I like stuffed toys but I love beanbags and pillows.
I like holidays but I love birthdays.
I like going out but I love staying indoors.
I like letters but I prefer numbers.
I like even numbers but I prefer odd ones.
I like my mobile but I love the telephone.
I like constancy but I prefer change.
I like company but I prefer solitude.
I like dreams but I prefer reality.
I like myths but I prefer fairytales.
I like knowledge but I prefer wisdom.
Ignorance is bliss but innocence is better.
I hate the ocean. The vastness and endlessness of it.
I hate pink. Too girly.
I hate sharks. They scare me numb.
I hate roaches. They're icky.
I hate liars and people who break promises.
Rain makes me sad and sleepy.
I am uniquely weird.
I am unpredictable.
I am misunderstood.
I am a hopeless romantic, though it's not so obvious.
I am secretive.
I am easily stressed and easily hurt.
I am jealous but not envious.
I am sensitive.
I am a thinker.
I am sentimental.
I am apprehensive.
I try to be strong. I avoid showing my weakness.
I seek safety and security.
I'm not dense, just act like one.
I forgive but don't forget.
I love unconditionally.
I am me.