an interesting day...

a really interesting day...

well, i had my p.e. class today.my partner was extra nice to me today. :) we were able to converse more today unlike before we would just exchange smiles & apologize to each other if one of us would hit the ball the wrong way or send it to the wrong direction.i said he was extra nice because last week,we had to practice our service & try to let the ball reach the other side of the net. (btw,my pe is volleyball.hehe) i was really,really lousy that whenever i hit the ball,it either would not reach the net or be heading the sides of the net.today,when our coach told us that we had to take a practical exam for service,my face was really sour & had a pout.when i looked at my teammates,i realized that my partner was looking at me smiling.he actually asked me if i can handle it.i told him why bother asking,he saw how i did last week anyway.he just laughed.he gave me encouraging words,saying that i'd be able to hit it right,just i be patient & practice.it really felt good that someone encouraged me.&my partner's always smiling at me whenever we have practice plays.it's hard not to smile back.that's why for some reason,i look forward to my p.e. days for besides de-stressing me,i have a nice partner.hehe

after class, i didn't change anymore because i'd be heading home anyway.but before i did, i passed by the chapel first.just wanted to say thanks for a nice day because we had a pop quiz last monday in our FILKOMU class & despite the fact that i had a problem & just had waterworks during our 10minute break in-between english & filipino class,i was able to keep a clear head when my professor was discussing the lesson & i aced the pop quiz! n_nv only two people aced the test,mind you.me & a friend of mine.hehe fine,call me nerd,i don't mind.im just happy from the fact that despite my problem distracting me,my head knew better & still listened in our class discussion.& that i was still able to take down notes.hehe.i also went to the chapel to confide my problem again,to help me to be strong in this challenge,wishing that the special person in my heart & i could settle everything already...also that i don't want to lose my best friend.he's irreplaceable for me...i don't know if i am to him but he is to me...& i don't want to lose him...

anyway,after going to the chapel,right outside,there are tiny scrolls that are placed in the small container in the bulletin board so i took a blue scroll.inside the scroll,it said:
Mother Teresa of Calcutta once said:"If you want to make peace,you don't talk to your friends.You talk to your enemies."
ask yourself:who are the people who need my forgiveness?
i found it a bit funny because it was ironic that the content of the scroll somehow was talking to me,like it somehow answered me.but then a thought came to my head,how can i talk to him when whenever we were suppose to talk,he can't say anything at all.hay...how are we going to go about it then?...

while walking,i was replying to a text message & when i was near the animo cafeteria,i felt like someone i know was behind me.but i disregarded the feeling & just kept walking.when i was near the gate,suddenly a few paces away from me,my first love just popped there & was also heading the same direction as i am.he actually looked my way,like he knew i was there,& gave a small wave.i was like,whoa ok haha,& gave a smile & a small wave as well.he was ahead of me & headed out the gate as well. i was thinking,why is he headed that way?doesn't he have a car?we were already at the sidewalk in front of mcdonald's when i noticed that he slowed down his pace.i was wondering why,what for?but i didn't walk past him & also slowed down my pace.i actually was hesitant if i'd go approach him or not,after all,he said hi in that small gesture when he saw me.but i didn't approach him.& guess what?he actually looked back my way!!i don't know why he did,probably trying to see if im still right behind him & if id approach him & make conversation.we were nearing the lrt station near mcdo & i was thinking maybe he'd head that way & not cross the street.but no,he was about to cross the street as well,same as i am.i was like,ok now what? but we already crossed the street & still didn't talk.after reaching the half of the pedestrian,we had to wait for on the other half,the cars were still passing by.only the two of us crossed that direction & later a few people followed.but in between those moments,we were the only people under that section of the lrt station waiting for the cars to stop,besides the police officer of course.when the police officer did stop the cars,he stopped right in front of me,where i was suppose to walk!i was annoyed that of all the places,why did he have to position himself there?!we crossed the street at the same time,but i was thinking that probably my F.L. already went to the other direction.i slowed down my pace,wanting to look behind me if he's still there,but i didn't.i waited for the time that i had to go left before actually looking behind me because i was scared that he might see me look behind my shoulder if he was there.good thing i waited because he was behind me!now, i really slowed down my pace,taking the stairs one at a time instead of my usual skips when i go up.i thought that we'd be able to talk but i guess not.i already went ahead & went to the ladies' section of the lrt platform.but before i did,i sort of waited for him to place his magnetic card in the electronic turnstile before heading the ladies' section.all the way of the ride i was wondering why i didn't converse him & wondered what station he'd get off to,if i did converse him earlier when we were in the mcdonald's sidewalk,would we be riding the lrt together?but i know in myself that i won't because i know that most probably,after having a chat with him (if i did),i'd go to the ladies' section.besides,my special one popped into my head.....so sad i can't tell him how my day went....i just hope he reads my entries,just like he used to do........